I started SL young, and soon it became a human "laboratory" for me.
I learned a lot about myself and my sexuality.
Many experiences and discussions with many partners helped me to free my mind, and become the person I am now.
Of course I also learned a lot about the others, and men particularly. Their needs... their dirty needs for the most experimented.
During all my years on sl, and always during my long pauses, many barriers that prevent living one's true needs and pleasures have fallen.
Now I'm happy with myself and proud of who I am.
Doesn't mean I don't need others, because I love to learn and keep discovering new people and new things, even if I'm grantly aware of my needs now.
Life being only choices, I take time to feel if someone can match with me.
I do a lot with a few people, instead of doing a little with a lot.
Now my experience can say that I always knew what I was seeking for,
but I just didn't know the right way to find it.
I was too much focused on the way the others do, thinking I could find THE way.
Finally it worked, but now I can say : always focus on your needs,
and how you can fulfill them; whatever the way, you'll learn.
Don't let others teach you, but learn from them.
The longest way will be to find your true needs.
The basic error is to seek for what we want (or think we want),
instead of listening to our needs
For me, SL is brain stimulation first, a good device to stimulate the rest.
I draw the images of people in my brain, from what I can read and see here.
I know it's not reality, but what I live with them is real.
SL is not a game to play ; it's a life to live.
Immersivist VS augmentatist ?
I am an immersivist in SL metaverse, not augmentatist or mixing both.
Some want augmented reality - I need full immersion.
My avatar is a projection of me (brain, mind, soul, energy...), but not of my body.
Every sexual stimulation come through the brain and lead my rl hands to stimulate me.
Voice is breaking the immersion, as it is too real, not anymore the projection of us in the virtual world, but like a basic sex on the phone - To much rl intimacy for me.
SL is the world to explore so many cerebral stimulations.
Having sex on the phone means cheating my rl partner - I feel it like that - very uncomfortable for me. But fucking with the projection of someone, it's like touching myself with the image drawn in my mind. The better being that the sl partner is doing the same as me, so we are in the same image and interaction. Feeding it and making it grow, while drawing all the details together.
